Seeing is Believing…
Jesus appears before the Apostles and is upset at their unbelief:
(But) later, as the eleven were at table, he appeared to them and rebuked them for their unbelief and hardness of heart because they had not believed those who saw him after he had been raised. -Mark 16:14, NAB
First, we begin by noticing that all of the Apostles are present. There were only eleven, of course, because Judas had not yet been replaced. So finally, the Apostles would see Jesus for themselves for the first time since His Resurrection.
Jesus was understandably upset with Apostles. First, Mary Magdalene had told them about His Resurrection (read more here). Then, when they did not believe her, He appeared before two other disciples (read more here), and they still chose not to believe.
Why was Jesus so upset? It would be hard for anyone to believe in the Resurrection. However, the Apostles had personally witnessed many of Jesus’ miracles, including raising people from the dead. Why, then, was it so hard for them to believe that He could conquer death?
Another reason for Jesus being upset is that He told them that He would be resurrected(read John 2:19-21 and Matthew 16:21). News of His Resurrection was something that they should have expected – not be surprised by. If they did not believe Him when He said this, what else did they not believe?
Seeing is believing, and Jesus finally allowed Himself to be seen by the Apostles. Are we waiting for the same thing? How often do we ask God just to show us a “sign” that He is with us? Do we need proof that He is really there? Are we any better than the Apostles who needed to see proof of Christ’s presence?
Believing in Christ’s Resurrection is one of the central aspects of our faith, yet it is also one of the most difficult ideas to swallow. Our rational mind will tell us that it’s impossible, but that’s where faith comes in. We must have faith in a God who sent His Son to redeem us and conquer death. That is what being a Christian is all about.
Honestly, it’s okay to struggle and have questions like this; you’re not alone. As you grow and mature in faith, it will become easier to accept and understand. Don’t worry, though. As it has been said, you may not believe in Jesus, but that’s okay – He still believes in you.